Ok this is going to sound crazy to most and i can just see you sitting there rolling your eyes and shaking your head..lol
Put this morning i put all my worries, all the guilt, all the anger and even put Warren on a platter. Held it above my head and surrended it all to the universe fro it to take care of them for me. I know the universe will give me back what i deserve. Which is a lot!!!!! Oh course this was all done in my imagination and i didnt actually put a platter above my head. Please dont ring the nut house.
Tomorrow i am going to Janelles for a few days and she has organised for a lady to come and read our cards. This should be very interesting as i have never had my cards read on a professional level.
Thought of the day!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Make a command to the Universe. Let the Universe know what you want. The Universe responds to your thoughts.
Sunday, May 6, 2007
Friday, May 4, 2007
Negative thoughts
I want them to leave my head, they haunt me night and day. Its like i have to fight them all the bloody time. I guess looking at it in a positive prospective i do know that they are there now rather than just letting them have their way with me.
Havent got to much to say today. Been flat out working and havent had to much time to think about stuff to much.
Thought of the day!!!!!!!!!!! Gratitude is absolutely the way to bring more into your life.
Havent got to much to say today. Been flat out working and havent had to much time to think about stuff to much.
Thought of the day!!!!!!!!!!! Gratitude is absolutely the way to bring more into your life.
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
HMMMMMMMM
I sit here and wonder if I can change the way i think. Surely i can but shit it would be a whole lot easier if i just kept on being the way i have been for the last 44 years.
I guess i felt a little down yesterday when the 2 things i put out to the universe did not happen. There is a part on the dvd that goes through this and if i do start doubting this will work then it wont work.
So i am aiming my thoughts at, well it just didnt happen yesterday and thats all.
I put my gratitude rock out in the full moon last night to cleanse it of any negativity. I have it sitting here next to me right now. So everytime i look at it or touch it i will think of something i am grateful for. Ok just picked it up and couldnt think of much to be grateful for right at that moment. Its funny how you can go from being so high to so low in a day or 2.
I guess deep down i am missing Warren, wondering if he will remember my birthday on Sunday because i will be totally gutted if i dont get a call or a message. I guess it comes down to the fact that this will be the first birthday in 7 years that he wont be there. I really am sitting here straining my brain looking for a positive from all this but i cant.
Ok i am going to finish this now because it is becoming a negative post and i said i wouldnt do that.
Thought of the day!!!!!!!!!!! The only thing you need to do is feel good now.
I guess i felt a little down yesterday when the 2 things i put out to the universe did not happen. There is a part on the dvd that goes through this and if i do start doubting this will work then it wont work.
So i am aiming my thoughts at, well it just didnt happen yesterday and thats all.
I put my gratitude rock out in the full moon last night to cleanse it of any negativity. I have it sitting here next to me right now. So everytime i look at it or touch it i will think of something i am grateful for. Ok just picked it up and couldnt think of much to be grateful for right at that moment. Its funny how you can go from being so high to so low in a day or 2.
I guess deep down i am missing Warren, wondering if he will remember my birthday on Sunday because i will be totally gutted if i dont get a call or a message. I guess it comes down to the fact that this will be the first birthday in 7 years that he wont be there. I really am sitting here straining my brain looking for a positive from all this but i cant.
Ok i am going to finish this now because it is becoming a negative post and i said i wouldnt do that.
Thought of the day!!!!!!!!!!! The only thing you need to do is feel good now.
Tuesday, May 1, 2007
Scrapbooking My Future
Ok last night i realised that i am scrapbooking my future. I bought a folder and have been putting in pics, ideas, what i am grateful for etc. I have bought stickers and have been making the whole thing all very pretty. It is what i am calling my positive journal. There will not be one scrap of negative stuff in my book.
Ok i am going to ask the universe for 2 things again today but at this stage i am unsure what they will be. I will get back to you on it when i have picked them out.
Thought of the day!!!!!!!! Treat yourself with love and respect, and you will attract people who show you love and respect.
Ok i am going to ask the universe for 2 things again today but at this stage i am unsure what they will be. I will get back to you on it when i have picked them out.
Thought of the day!!!!!!!! Treat yourself with love and respect, and you will attract people who show you love and respect.
Monday, April 30, 2007
3 days in a row
Ok well maybe not in a row but on thursday, monday and today i have willed the car park that i wanted and got it.
This is the whole visualisation thing that the secret gets into. I visualised it and got it. I was so stoked this morning because i drove in and thought i hadnt been able to do it today and then someone got into there car and left.
Ok i made a pact with the universe today that i wanted a car park and 1 compliment and i got both. So they are the smaller things i am starting to dabble in. I need to come up with something with a bit of guts now. Not sure what to do next. Oh i guess having put it out there that i am expecting $10,000 in the next 30 days is full of guts..lol. Kate when i get my money i am going to buy yuou your own copy of the secret,OK!!!!!
Ok this is just a bonus add on for the day because i wanted to make sure i said thankyou to the universe again so everyone can hear me say it. THANKYOU UNIVERSE.
This is the whole visualisation thing that the secret gets into. I visualised it and got it. I was so stoked this morning because i drove in and thought i hadnt been able to do it today and then someone got into there car and left.
Ok i made a pact with the universe today that i wanted a car park and 1 compliment and i got both. So they are the smaller things i am starting to dabble in. I need to come up with something with a bit of guts now. Not sure what to do next. Oh i guess having put it out there that i am expecting $10,000 in the next 30 days is full of guts..lol. Kate when i get my money i am going to buy yuou your own copy of the secret,OK!!!!!
Ok this is just a bonus add on for the day because i wanted to make sure i said thankyou to the universe again so everyone can hear me say it. THANKYOU UNIVERSE.
It's Really Hard
And i mean really hard to change the way you think after 44 years. But the good thing is that i realise how bad my self talk is to myself. I cant believe now that i am aware of it the way i talk to myself.
I do believe this can work but then when i start to think about it my negative side pops up and says you cant do this as it is just to hard. Well i will beat this negative little sucker that lives in side my head, my soul and my spirit. I am going to give it the biggest beating of its life until dissapears for good.
Not sure what else i have to say today cause like i said before i am going to make this a positive place to be so there refuse to talk about bad stuff on here.
I am going to watch the dvd again this morning and hopefully i will get a injection of that feel good stuff.
Thought of the day!!!!!!!!!! Laughter attracts joy, releases negativity, and leads to miraculous cures.
I do believe this can work but then when i start to think about it my negative side pops up and says you cant do this as it is just to hard. Well i will beat this negative little sucker that lives in side my head, my soul and my spirit. I am going to give it the biggest beating of its life until dissapears for good.
Not sure what else i have to say today cause like i said before i am going to make this a positive place to be so there refuse to talk about bad stuff on here.
I am going to watch the dvd again this morning and hopefully i will get a injection of that feel good stuff.
Thought of the day!!!!!!!!!! Laughter attracts joy, releases negativity, and leads to miraculous cures.
Sunday, April 29, 2007
24 hours
Well it has been more really but it has been 24 hours since i made the decision to throw what smokes i had left in the bin. It is time for me to start to cherish the body i live in rather than abusing the crap out of it all the time. Up until now i have abused my body, my spirit and my soul. And do you know what??? They all deserve better than what i was giving them.
I should have no reason anymore to get into such an emotional state that i will feel the need to abuse my body with toxic substances anymore. I have let go of my past and looking forward to the future with my new attitude.
I do have to admit that it is a little hard trying to change the way you think especailly since i have been doing it for nearly 44 years. But hey i am giving it a go, what is the worse thing that could happen. NOTHING..lol.
I bought myself something special on Saturday. It was a wall hanging that i presume you buy for someone else and it is telling them how special they are. WELL i bought it for myself so i can tell myself how special i am every day. It is kind of funny how i even found it. I went into the newsagent to buy the paper and just as i walked out the door something made me stop. I thought to myself there is something over there in that corner that i need to go look at. Sure enough this was the first thing i saw. It kind of freaked me out a little that a force could make me stop and go and look at something that i had not even seen.
Oh and just so i get this out there rather than keeping it to myself. I would like to have 10,000 dollars unexpected income in the next 30 days.
Thought of the day!!!!!!!!! Let go of the difficulties of your past, cultural codes and social beliefs. You are the only one who can create the life you deserve.
I should have no reason anymore to get into such an emotional state that i will feel the need to abuse my body with toxic substances anymore. I have let go of my past and looking forward to the future with my new attitude.
I do have to admit that it is a little hard trying to change the way you think especailly since i have been doing it for nearly 44 years. But hey i am giving it a go, what is the worse thing that could happen. NOTHING..lol.
I bought myself something special on Saturday. It was a wall hanging that i presume you buy for someone else and it is telling them how special they are. WELL i bought it for myself so i can tell myself how special i am every day. It is kind of funny how i even found it. I went into the newsagent to buy the paper and just as i walked out the door something made me stop. I thought to myself there is something over there in that corner that i need to go look at. Sure enough this was the first thing i saw. It kind of freaked me out a little that a force could make me stop and go and look at something that i had not even seen.
Oh and just so i get this out there rather than keeping it to myself. I would like to have 10,000 dollars unexpected income in the next 30 days.
Thought of the day!!!!!!!!! Let go of the difficulties of your past, cultural codes and social beliefs. You are the only one who can create the life you deserve.
Saturday, April 28, 2007
Went to a hen's night last night. I wasnt going to stay the night but did and maybe that was not the wisest choice i have made. Ok rephrase that, I could have made a wiser choice by going home. You are going to see a lot of me rephrasing things because i really do want to take the negativity out of everything i say.
Anyway got pissed, some man(dan i think) tried to pick me up. I guess it felt kind of good but sad at the same time because it made me think that i didnt want to be in that situation,rephase, I want to be there with a man that i love.
Boy oh boy this positiviety is hard work..lol.
Ok so now onto the important business, I just watched The secret. The book certainly has a lot more info in it than the dvd. Mind you I havent got through the book or the audio book at this stage. I do know that the books contain info weight where the dvd doesent.
I am not quite sure how far to ramble on about this because it could become a little boring. Rephrase..lol. I am going to talk about it as much as i want and if people get sick of it they can close the page down.
Thought of the day!!!!! When you feel bad about yourself, you block the love and instead you attract more people and situations that will continue to make you feel bad about you.
Anyway got pissed, some man(dan i think) tried to pick me up. I guess it felt kind of good but sad at the same time because it made me think that i didnt want to be in that situation,rephase, I want to be there with a man that i love.
Boy oh boy this positiviety is hard work..lol.
Ok so now onto the important business, I just watched The secret. The book certainly has a lot more info in it than the dvd. Mind you I havent got through the book or the audio book at this stage. I do know that the books contain info weight where the dvd doesent.
I am not quite sure how far to ramble on about this because it could become a little boring. Rephrase..lol. I am going to talk about it as much as i want and if people get sick of it they can close the page down.
Thought of the day!!!!! When you feel bad about yourself, you block the love and instead you attract more people and situations that will continue to make you feel bad about you.
Friday, April 27, 2007
The Morning After
Ok i am still feeling sad this morning and have a few tears. I had a bit of a revelation last night and was reminded that I was greiving and it is a perfectly normal emotion. Thanks Kate for reminding me of that.
Anyway today i am going to focus on the positives. I am telling myself that this has all happened for a reason. The universe is going to give me what i want and need from life. I have my goals set out and i will achieve them. I am going to visual my goals and i am going to get them soon.
My Goals are
1. To be a happy, caring loving person
2. To be in a happy loving relationship by the end of this year
3. To have lots of money and i mean lots by the time i am 50
4. To own my own business so i can get lots of money
5. To be at my perfect weight by the end of August
Some of these goals are materialistic and thats fine. Mostly I just want to be happy. Be happy with who I am and to have the love and respect from a partner that i deserve.
I realised this morning I have never had that love and respect from anyone in my life and thats because i have never loved and respected myself so how could anyone feel that way about me, if i have never given it to myself.
It is quite ironic in a way that the last couple of days that a few things have happened on the exact same day as they did last year.
One being on Thursday where i think i was happier than i have been for a long long time and that same exact date year ago, i was at a place where i was that low that i didnt care if i killed myself or most importantly that i killed someone else. The second thing was on Friday when i let go of Warren, we had had bascially the same talk at the exact same place drinking tea out of the exact same mugs, exactly one year ago.
Not sure if it means a damn thing but it made me sit up and take notice that i have really wasted exactly a year getting my life back on track.
Ok onwards and upwards from here.
Thought of the day!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Your thoughts become things.
Anyway today i am going to focus on the positives. I am telling myself that this has all happened for a reason. The universe is going to give me what i want and need from life. I have my goals set out and i will achieve them. I am going to visual my goals and i am going to get them soon.
My Goals are
1. To be a happy, caring loving person
2. To be in a happy loving relationship by the end of this year
3. To have lots of money and i mean lots by the time i am 50
4. To own my own business so i can get lots of money
5. To be at my perfect weight by the end of August
Some of these goals are materialistic and thats fine. Mostly I just want to be happy. Be happy with who I am and to have the love and respect from a partner that i deserve.
I realised this morning I have never had that love and respect from anyone in my life and thats because i have never loved and respected myself so how could anyone feel that way about me, if i have never given it to myself.
It is quite ironic in a way that the last couple of days that a few things have happened on the exact same day as they did last year.
One being on Thursday where i think i was happier than i have been for a long long time and that same exact date year ago, i was at a place where i was that low that i didnt care if i killed myself or most importantly that i killed someone else. The second thing was on Friday when i let go of Warren, we had had bascially the same talk at the exact same place drinking tea out of the exact same mugs, exactly one year ago.
Not sure if it means a damn thing but it made me sit up and take notice that i have really wasted exactly a year getting my life back on track.
Ok onwards and upwards from here.
Thought of the day!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Your thoughts become things.
Thursday, April 26, 2007
The Beginning Of My New Life
Ok where do I begin????????
I thought up until now that my life was a mess, well thats because it was. I realise now that i invited that mess to my life. Well from now on my life is going to be different. I have found the "secret"!!!!!!!!!!!
I have learnt a lot from the little bit that i have learnt and i have heaps to learn yet.
Just changing the way i think over the last week has changed my attitude to a degree that i cant even explain. I know it is going to be an on going process.
I dumped my ex boyfriend of 7 years today. Yes we have been broken up for a few months so maybe i should say i let him go. It was very hard and a very emotional thing for me to do. I have loved that man through the thick and thin but right now we are not meant to be together. I am sure in the future we could works things out if he would get his head out of arse and just let things happen rather than fighting them.
Anyway this is the first time i posted in a live journal and not even sure i am doing it right so i wont prattle on incase i cant even upload this thing.
I do know from now on there will be so sadness in here. It will be just me posting positive stuff. And Penny if your the only one that actually reads it and gets some good vibes from it then i have done my job.
Thought of the day!!!!!!!. Nothing can come into your experience unless you summon it through persistant thoughts.
I thought up until now that my life was a mess, well thats because it was. I realise now that i invited that mess to my life. Well from now on my life is going to be different. I have found the "secret"!!!!!!!!!!!
I have learnt a lot from the little bit that i have learnt and i have heaps to learn yet.
Just changing the way i think over the last week has changed my attitude to a degree that i cant even explain. I know it is going to be an on going process.
I dumped my ex boyfriend of 7 years today. Yes we have been broken up for a few months so maybe i should say i let him go. It was very hard and a very emotional thing for me to do. I have loved that man through the thick and thin but right now we are not meant to be together. I am sure in the future we could works things out if he would get his head out of arse and just let things happen rather than fighting them.
Anyway this is the first time i posted in a live journal and not even sure i am doing it right so i wont prattle on incase i cant even upload this thing.
I do know from now on there will be so sadness in here. It will be just me posting positive stuff. And Penny if your the only one that actually reads it and gets some good vibes from it then i have done my job.
Thought of the day!!!!!!!. Nothing can come into your experience unless you summon it through persistant thoughts.
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