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I sit here and wonder if I can change the way i think. Surely i can but shit it would be a whole lot easier if i just kept on being the way i have been for the last 44 years.
I guess i felt a little down yesterday when the 2 things i put out to the universe did not happen. There is a part on the dvd that goes through this and if i do start doubting this will work then it wont work.
So i am aiming my thoughts at, well it just didnt happen yesterday and thats all.
I put my gratitude rock out in the full moon last night to cleanse it of any negativity. I have it sitting here next to me right now. So everytime i look at it or touch it i will think of something i am grateful for. Ok just picked it up and couldnt think of much to be grateful for right at that moment. Its funny how you can go from being so high to so low in a day or 2.
I guess deep down i am missing Warren, wondering if he will remember my birthday on Sunday because i will be totally gutted if i dont get a call or a message. I guess it comes down to the fact that this will be the first birthday in 7 years that he wont be there. I really am sitting here straining my brain looking for a positive from all this but i cant.
Ok i am going to finish this now because it is becoming a negative post and i said i wouldnt do that.

Thought of the day!!!!!!!!!!! The only thing you need to do is feel good now.